Celia dies of meningitis, which means that the narrator, who is a doctor, could have saved her. After Celia’s death, the narrator is therefore affected by a feeling of guilt. His error of judgement towards Celia’s illness and her death is what causes his evolvement from idealist to a disillusioned man. The narrator’s feeling of guilt is dominating his life, since he, after Celia’s death, does not want to draw anymore and he neither wants to be a doctor anymore, because of his error of judgement towards Celia. He avoids situations that allow his thoughts to wander, because he tries to avoid thinking of the occurrence and his feeling of guilt. After the occurrence, the narrator has become a psychiatrist, which seems ironic, since it seems that the narrator needs to share his experience and his thoughts with someone in order to be able to move on, which shows in the end of the story, when the narrator is telling the African nurse about his experience. The narrator lacks self-awareness, since he does not realize that he needs to talk about the occurrence and his feeling of guilt and since he avoids thinking about his experience. In the end of the story, the narrator is finally able to talk about his experience.
The narrator’s error of judgement
Celia dies of meningitis, which means that the narrator, who is a doctor, could have saved her. After Celia’s death, the narrator is therefore affected by a feeling of guilt. His error of judgement towards Celia’s illness and her death is what causes his evolvement from idealist to a disillusioned man. The narrator’s feeling of guilt is dominating his life, since he, after Celia’s death, does not want to draw anymore and he neither wants to be a doctor anymore, because of his error of judgement towards Celia. He avoids situations that allow his thoughts to wander, because he tries to avoid thinking of the occurrence and his feeling of guilt. After the occurrence, the narrator has become a psychiatrist, which seems ironic, since it seems that the narrator needs to share his experience and his thoughts with someone in order to be able to move on, which shows in the end of the story, when the narrator is telling the African nurse about his experience. The narrator lacks self-awareness, since he does not realize that he needs to talk about the occurrence and his feeling of guilt and since he avoids thinking about his experience. In the end of the story, the narrator is finally able to talk about his experience.
By Julie B. 2.y